I've been a long time dabbler in a ton of entheogens for all kinds of purposes, and sometimes just for fun. I live a structured life working in a technical field and eventually felt it was time for me to dip my toes back into academia.
When I was young, I was diagnosed ADHD. Trust me, I know they hand that one out like candy, but it was a very strong case. They bounced me across pharmaceuticals for the better part of a decade, and while I was successful in school, I developed all kinds of psychological and physical issues. I got into college and floated along, bouncing back and forth with taking meds, eventually finishing out as a solid B- student of Biology.
I dropped the meds and spent the better part of a decade trying to repair my mental health and my organs before I really felt alive again. Unfocused and franetic, but alive.
Getting back into school was a hard choice. I'm a capable man, sociable and (I think) intelligent. But I'm prone to spiraling into disorganization and still have a buzzing bit of anxiety that tries to derail me sometimes, especially around other people.
Shortly before I did so, I had started trying out amanita- which was proving wonders for regulating my sleep and just generally shushing the anxiousness that would randomly hit me.
So I just ran with it. I started a Masters in Cybersecurity Admin with a 350mg full-spec gummy first thing in the morning a few times a week. Sometimes I'd take extra when I had a heavy workload or a lot of speaking requirements.
And I found that it worked better than any medication I'd ever been put on.
I didn't really need anything else. Sometimes I'd have my morning coffee, or just some cacao, and then I'd get to work. I flew through work, speaking engagaments and my classes. My grades were legitimately perfect, something I'd never accomplished on anything else, and certainly didn't have the motivation to do alone. Sure it was difficult, but focus was easy. I felt stimulated and quick in the mind without all the clogs or spirally fixation.
I speedran my entire Masters over the course of a year and half, the fastest path that the courses were offered. I bet I could've gone faster.
Of course, I enjoy the occassional strong tea over the weekend, but primarily this has been the most functional substance I've ever tried. I experience no whiplash, no addiction, no gritty teeth. I sleep easy at night and stay productive for as long as I choose to, instead of feeling tied to a speeding train all day.
Really, I dont think I can praise it enough. I think this mushroom is going to make an insane impact on the world of others with AuADHD. It simply hasn't been looked at with a medical lens enough yet.
Now that my Masters is done, I've tapered down to a little less, but it remains my favorite daily driver. I don't have any scenario in my head where I'd choose stims for my functionality over this cool little mushroom.
